Words do not make up for what you did and said. Just beacuse you don’t remember and you said sorry once does not mean it is ok. It hurt, what you said hurt. And what makes it worse is the fact that you don’t ACT like you are sorry or that you care. You never show your feelings and you never show your feelings that you say that you have. Actions speak louder than words so show me, show me how you really feel. But you don’t and I’m sure you won’t. I hate that I like you so much, you are the only person that I have ever cried this much about. You repeatedly hurt me and you don’t realize you do it till I tell you that you have. That is the worst part that you don’t notice, you don’t notice what you say and do hurts me. I try to defend you to my family and friends but it gets hard when you keep doing things that hurt me and never seem to realize it. Everyone tells me to never deal with it and to end it now or I should have before but I can’t, at some point I want to so that I can maybe end all this hurting but you are what I really want and you are who I want. You mean more to me than anyone has besides my family and very close friends. I know it sounds crazy since we haven’t been together that long, well longer than some, but I still don’t want this to end here. You tell me not to cry over you because I haven’t known you long enough but you have made such impact on my life that you do matter enough to cry about. I feel so empty and the fact that I don’t brighten your day hurts me. Even if you have a bad day doesn’t mean that you have to take it out on me, especially when you had hurt me two nights before. Shouldn’t you be happy to see me? Shouldn’t that make you happy and not want to be mad about work anymore? Idk but that’s just me.
As much as I want to tell you this I know I can’t. So I will post this on a site that I know you will never look at. I can get my feelings out without starting another fight with you….I just wish you would realize how much I like you….
